St Teresa of Avila did of God,"If that's how you treat your friends, no wonder you have so few of them!" St Teresa also said, " May God protect me from gloomy saints!" It seems no matter what I do [or don't do, as the case may be] I can't do it right. If I take my KJV to bible study I'm showing off. If I use the NLT ~ it leaves soo much out! Really? Try the NIV!
When the Lord was finally able to prise me out from under the harrow I was happily inhabiting He pointed out that I had been warned. It was not His fault if I was not listening up, because what He told me, way, way back was,... Having done all, to stand.... Just our presence as a church is whipping certain people into a frenzy. We don't have to do anything. Both John & I have a fairly wide streak of stubbornness & have just quietly been persisting with what we believe the Lord is asking us to do & in so far as it is possible ignoring everything else. Sometimes that's simply not possible ~ like at bible study.
I love the word of God & once I get going I can quote scripture till the cows come home because I love beautiful language, which the old KJV is. Super. Always. I've always read the bible just for the lovely language ~ even when I didn't believe a word of it! And I happen to think God is logical rather than random ~ which I can see makes me a total pain in the whatsit in some quarters [especially other pastors] because if you are a child of God & believe God is good then you cannot attribute disease & sickness, tsunamis, earthquakes et al to God. He says He gives good things to His children. He says He works all things to their good. However, this is a fallen world & Satan is still the ruler of this world. You can only overcome through Christ, who has overcome the world. There is an internal logic to all of scripture & it flows all the way from Genesis to Revelation because God does not change.
John, initially, was not so happy with me going to the bible study ~ & I never asked the Lord why He wanted me there; I just obeyed the Holy Spirit's prompting. However The Spirit got on John's case & told him in no uncertain terms I was doing as I'd been instructed & he was to leave me to get on with it. He worries. He knows I loathe living in a wrangle & my tolerance level for idiocy of a certain type is non existent. He knows I'm not a people person & my social skills are lacking. I'm not there to chit chat & exchange banalities. I'm not there to eat. I'm there to talk about God & His word & I'm palpably impatient if it takes too long to get there! I did say my social skills are lacking.
Then we have church ~ which is lovely but John insisted we do morning tea, which is hard for me. I'm not into the food bit & if I don't have something to say I don't say anything. Awkward.
The end result is I have been relieved to sit & read while Cait rehearses twice a week. It has been a double blessing to have concerts to attend. Then there is the every 2nd Friday ministry & Rhema on Friday nights also requires some socialising on my part. The end result is I am peopled out. I don't want to be constantly grumping & dumping all over my blog & there are days when I would appreciate a pea shooter & a little target practice. You know how it is. I miss my harrow.